TSRnetwork.com Line up for November and December

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November
Monday Nov 3 @ 8 PM PST Sir Pyro and slave_goddess The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Nov 4 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish Guest Mistress Ashley Reigns Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Nov 4 @ 9 PM PST Guest Hudsy Hawn; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Nov 10 @ 8 PM PST Dragon_San The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Nov 11 @ 7:30 PM PST Mistress Ashley Reigns Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Nov 11 @ 9 PM PST Guest Kinky Klaus; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Nov 17 No Show
Tuesady Nov 18 No Shows
Monday Nov 24 @ 8 PM PST MsCynthia The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Nov 25 @ 7:30 PM PST Guest Mistress Cyan Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Nov 25 @ 9 PM PST Guest Kasod; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie Rope Bondage.The Rev Mel Show Live on TSRnetwork.com

December
Monday Dec 1 @ 8 PM PST Entropy156 The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Dec 2 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Dec 2 @ 9 PM PST Guest TBA; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Dec 8 @ 8 PM PST Miss_Tearious The Rev Mel Show all about Latex
Tuesday Dec 9 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Dec 9 @ 9 PM PST Guest TBA; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Dec 15 @ 8 PM PST Guest Dr Limor The Rev Mel Show (Dr Limor from Playboy Radio)3
Tuesday Dec 16 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Dec 16 @ 9 PM PST Guest TBA; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Dec 22@ 8 PM PST Mistress Ashley Reigns The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Dec 23 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis
Tuesday Dec 23 @ 9 PM PST Guest TBA; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie
Monday Dec 29 @ 8 PM PST Thizbee The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday Dec 30 @ 7:30 PM PST Inside Fetish with Goddess Genesis3
Tuesday Dec 30 @ 9 PM PST Guest TBA; Naughty or Nice with Miss Cassie

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Since it’s launch in December 2005, more than 3800,000 unique listeners/viewers have join the TSRnetwork.com community here on TSRnetwork.com. The site cutting-edge content from Live Free Kink TV Shows, musicians, artist, writers, photographers, models and light minded folks, all on the vanguard of today’s pop sex culture. TSRnetwork.com and TalkingSeRadio.com is an ever-changing environment with new content added daily. TSRnetwork.com started out as Talkingsexradio.com an audio podcast that highlight the BDSM community and life choice. Then when the TV shows were developed the name was changed to TSRnetwork.com TSR stands for Talking Sex Radio and still believes in education and creating space with freedom in mind to be who you are. It is the foundation of TSR and the right to have an adult life without fear.

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The Surfer Theory

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The Surfer Theory:

Men who surf are not only kinky but need a female led relationship.

Intro:

Now I have spoken to several “surfers” who have confirmed my theory and I have seen it manifest without concern for age, ethnic background, or economic level.  I have also seen it take on different flavors from a vanilla boy unhappy with past relationships because the women all wanted him to be the strong one; to very kinky little boys who need a Mommy to love and discipline them.

Observation:

Things surfers seem to have these things in common on some level:

The ocean is one of their favorite places to be

Being out on the water makes them feel alive

Even after having a painful/disastrous wipe-out, they can’t wait to go back

Being in the water, feeling the power of the waves, is an obsession

The ocean is capricious and unpredictable

Mother Nature is all powerful and controlling

Submitting to the waves is the way to overcome

Survey:

And I have discovered a great deal of similarities in my many conversations with about 10-15 surfers I have met online (and in person) that connect to their needs in relationships:

Seeking “Mother Nature” type relationship

Want someone else to make the decisions

Need for female led relationship

Need for discipline

Need for love and affection

Need for the other person to have some level of control in their lives

Note:

Inference is the act or process of deriving logical conclusions from premises known or assumed to be true.

Inference:

From these similarities in how they view the ocean, and how they view relationships I have made the following observation.  Surfers are kinky on some level and the majority I have met have a desire to have a specific type of D/s relationship:  Mommy/boy.

I understand and concede that this type of dynamic may be the extreme, but it is also the most commonly seen.

Conclusion:

There seems to be some kind of correlation between how they view the ocean, surfing, Mother Nature; and the type of relationship they seek:  One that includes a dominant female, discipline (including pain and control) and soothing, affectionate aftercare.  In many cases there is also a sense of “worship” and a feeling that “Only Mommy really understands what I need most.”

There also seems to be a connection between the “taboo” quality of this type of D/s dynamic and the “anti-establishment” attitudes found in the surfer culture.

Finally, I am curious to connect with and “survey” by conversation, any surfers who feel they may connect to this theory on any level.  Feel free to contact me with “Surfer Theory” in your subject line, or first sentence.

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Generations from now

thizbeeBack CameraGenerations from now,

How will the hipsters,

Who haven’t been born yet;

See us?

 

What will they think of their past?

What will they think is cool?

How important will these things be?

 

Fashion, Art, Music,

Love, Lust, Morality?

 

Money, Infamy, Celebrity,

Motivation, Influence, Notoriety?

 

Drama economics, Wrong wing Bullies,

Dog eat Dog, God eat God,

Two class society (sounds like slavery)

Power hungry political progeny

 

And this makes me think about the victims of Social tormentors

 

The rich kid, bully,

Perfect at everything,

Ex-jock, ex-prom-queen,

Ex-movie star, political superstar.

 

Climbing the corporate ladder to success on the backs of your victims:

Just like when we were in 2nd grade

And you pushed me down

And all our friends laughed.

 

You already have everything.

I’m nothing

I got nothing

Why do you keep hurting me?

 

So you established your dominance

And have been vying for

Your way to the top

Ever since.

 

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The Rev Mel Show with guest Author Laura Antoniou Live July 28 at 8 PM PST

The Rev Mel Show Live BDSM TV where we have talk shows that talk about the Lifestyle, safety and education. We are the Real Fifty Shades of Grey. Come and join us in the chat room.

Author Laura Antoniou is our guest on July 28 on the Rev Mel Show BDSM TV Live.

She is the author of Marketplace and will giving out an E-book copy of Marketplace to someone in the chat room this Monday evening at 8 PM PST.

Proud member of the Middle Aged Guard Laura Antoniou is the author of the well known Marketplace series of erotic novels, but has also written dozens of short stories, essays and other works in various genres for over 25 years. Winner of the NLA Lifetime Achievement Award and the Pantheon of Leather Lifetime Achievement Award, she nevertheless intends to keep living for quite some time. A popular speaker on topic relating to alternative sexual practices – aka kinky sex – she has presented, taught and ranted at over 150 conferences and events all over the world since the 1980’s, delivering enlightenment, entertainment and indictments. She has also appeared at colleges and universities, including Harvard, NYU, Rutgers, Columbia and the University of Washington.

Over the years, her work has been translated into Spanish, German, Japanese and Hebrew; in 2010, she hit the world of e-books as the Marketplace moved to a new publisher and Laura came out as Christopher Morgan, best-selling writer of gay male erotica, including the novel Musclebound. Together with her wife, Karen Taylor, she has written a ritually correct leather Passover seder, titled Avadim Chayanu.

In 2013, Laura released two new books – a collection of Marketplace fan fiction, (No Safewords) and a comedy murder mystery (The Killer Wore Leather) that was a finalist for a Lambda Literary Award. The long-awaited 6th book in the Marketplace series, The Inheritor is scheduled for the end of 2014, when she will make her first appearance as editor of the long running Best lesbian Erotica series from Cleis Press. Keep track of her on Fetlife, Facebook & Twitter, and at LAntoniou.com

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The Movie Fifty Shades of Grey are we ready for this?

I see that there is a huge uproar in our community about the upcoming movie. When the books were release So many people come into my classes at the Lair that had read the books. I saw it taper down a bit but if this movie is a success in the vanilla world we will have more and people joining our community.

Some would think that we are not ready for this as a community as more and more people are coming into the life choice without really know what this thing we call BDSM is all about. I have taught thousands of newbies that have been brought in by the book and the movie they are going to come at records numbers.

It is up the season educators, teachers and players to educate the masses that are coming into the life style. We are not about fashion, how hard you can fling a flogger or how many slaves you own. It’s about honor and respect and integrity and how to keep a sub, slave or bottom safe. It’s about never harming the mind, body or soul and yes I will hurt you but never harm you in any way.

Community Leaders need to come together and work with each other to build a strong community of support. We will have many people coming in and yes Fetlife will in-cress in the amount of people joining but will this be good for our real time community? Only time will tell….

Hollywood is taking notice and BDSM is going to be the new hot topic to make TV series and movies much like the vampire did to TV and films.

Are we ready for this? I think we are as we have many educators, teachers and community leaders that are looking at how we can educate the new influx of people coming in. I see it on Facebook, Twitter, Fetlife and yes. I have written about it on TSRnetwork.com.

We as a community need to come together and support each other and reach out to newbies and talk to them about safety, protocol and how this all really work before we are inundated with movie viewers that want to beat their girlfriend or boyfriends and make sure no harm comes to them.

We are no longer hidden in a closet and are wide open for the world to see as the world will be looking at in a microscope and watching. How to deal with this simple. Embrace this as it’s going to happen and reach out to new comers and remember we were all newbies once long ago….

We survived the Story of O and the Secretary and we will survived Fifty Shades of Grey and we will more and more movies and TV series being creative that highlights our life choice. I try to look at the positive side of it we no longer have to hide in the closet and we are now of a less taboo and more expected in the vanilla world.

The humanizing of BDSM started with the fashion industry, then Goth Clubs, books and now movies. As I have coined the phrase at Dom Con a few years ago to a group of 8 vanilla people when they asked what was Dom Con about. I looked in the gentleman’s eyes and said ” There is not a street in United States that someone is not being tied to a bed, blindfolded and spanked, we are not much different that then the vanilla world”. He got it and smiled and understood as it hit a core with him.

We still have to live in the vanilla world and still have to have common sense when we are out in the vanilla world. As we sit in the movie theater and watch Fifty Shades of Grey and they get some of the things wrong we will shake in our boots but how long did it take us to get it right? This is just the beginning as our community was up in arms about the Goth Clubs when they started and it did change the way we looked at BDSM. This movie will do the same so pull up your boot strings and support your local community and make a difference.
Walk in peace everyone and find joy in this life as you never know what tomorrow will bring.

Rev Mel
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Where is the community going?

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I am one that has seen a huge change in our community over the last 20 years and some of it good and some is not. After teaching over 9 or 10 thousands of people that come to my class at the Lair de Sade over 12 years has taught me so much. Life is a con stance change and more and more people are coming into our life choice every day. We are no longer hidden in the closet and we are wide open for all to see.

I welcome this and can’t say that yesterday was better than today as we have to grow as a community and as we begin to think out of the box. The only thing that I see what is happening is that we have lost a lot of compassion for others. That will happen when you so many new people coming into a life choice without really understanding what the people in the past did to lay down the path for today’s community.
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We have changed as a community because our community has crossed countless boarders because of the internet and we have the ability to right out to millions of likeminded folks. Our way of life has change and I embrace this change as we can only grow from it. The past has gotten us to today and for now all we can do is educate all that are coming in and embrace them with love and understanding. Life is always in a motion of change without the change we would be sleeping in caves.

As, I have coined this phase many years ago at Dom Con as a group of vanilla people sat across our table with questions on their faces. I walked up to the table and said “I think you have lots of questions”? One of the gentleman at table said “Yes, what is going here?” I replied to him “There is not a street that someone is not being tied to a bed, blindfolded and spank as we are not different then yourself. The looked into his eyes as he smiled and it forever changed my life. We all started vanilla and we all made a choice to join this community of likeminded people. We all have made mistakes as we continue our BDSM path and the lessons that we have learned is priceless.
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I, for one love the way our community has grown as I now have friends all over the world as we share with each other our love and understanding. Every community has to evolve and move in the direction that will change all of forever. We must never forget the human factor in what we do and never forget kindness and know that all of us are learning valuable lessons about who we are. Yes, we are community but also individuals with our own way of looking life itself. We create our own path and control our own life as we make choices. We can choose to make a difference and follow the pack or we can choose to create our thoughts from a place of individuality and common sense. We were all born and will all die someday but it what you do here while you are breathing matters. Go with the flow of change or hold on to the past is a personal choice. I welcome all the new people that find this life choice something that might bring a sparkly to their daily life.
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Our past was not scary it a learning curve and an education and created a path towards today. Change is not a bad thing and it can scary but it is necessary to build a stronger community. No one is ruining the scene is just evolving into something different and it will be interesting to see where this path takes us.
I just sit back and watch it as it evolves on to the next stage of growth much like a baby as it moves from baby to toddler to teenagers and to an adult. I have high hopes for our next generations that will replace us as we have so many wonderful educators that reacheding out to so some many. We are one in all of this and feel that we must be there and support our community in a positive way and never forget the past but to move on to expect change. Change is a good thing and I embrace it and I still have my memories of the past and smile at the thoughts of those memories. The past is the past, I live in today and do think about tomorrow but tomorrow will happen and I’m looking forward to see what it will bring.
Rev Mel

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True Authentic and Transparent Self

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 To truly know our self, we must “understand who we are, how we want to be perceived, as well as what we aspire to be~ Sindell & Sindell, 2014~

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How does one give permission to their true authentic and transparent self? Where do we begin? We talk about being truly authentic and transparent but how many just mouths the words?

Every day we take this journey into our own lives and learn something new as we interact with love one’s, friends and strangers at each crossing.  With being in both worlds one vanilla and the other world of BDSM how do we stay authentic and transparent to ourselves and others?

Transparency reveals the character of a person and when you show Transparency it lets others know that you are a person of integrity and you honor yourself. Being authentic and transparent is a relationship with oneself and allowing others to see your true self.  The key to ones self is, transparency, authenticity and accountability as we walk in both worlds of BDSM and Non-BDSM world. We must not also forget the part of us called our soul as walk on the path of true authentic and transparent self.

Please listen to the audio recorded on my thoughts about being authentic and transparent.

Rev Mel

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Where Has All the Compassion Gone?

pink stockingsI just read a posting on another site and there was so much anger in the post. I thought to myself where has all the compassion has gone. Have we lost human compassion for another? Is this where our BDSM community is going? We protect the predators that have a name and criticize the submissive for expressing him or herself post about it in a public form. Amazing when a negative post is put out their everyone rally s around it but when anyone post something positive it may get a comment here or there.

What will our future of BDSM look like as it does not look like it did 20 or 15 years ago. We have become a community of egos and have lost the core of who we are. Are we still in high school where bullies rule the world? I have seen thousands and thousands of people come into the lifestyle and never before have I seen so many people with bloated egos and contempt for our foundation of honesty and respect. Where are we heading as many of the older generation have stop coming to public events and the bullies are running scene.

What I have learned are not easy lessons but well worth it and would like to share what I have learned with you. Many of what I have learned is common sense and how to have compassion for another and not to let ego rule your heart and soul.

Each person has lessons to learn and it’s about taking responsibly for your actions what come and go in your life. It’s the lessons of life that you learn from and many of us keep making the same mistake over and over again because it’s a lesson that many of us have not quite really looked at yet. It takes two people to make a relationship work not just one.

Know thy self-first before you enter into a relationship, value yourself and think before you run into someone’s arm, bed or commitment. Don’t move fast and ask questions and put a side of the thoughts that this person will complete me. Complete yourself first and know who you are.

These are lessons that I’m still learning as many of us are trying to understand the big question WHY? It happens because we allow ourselves to open up our hearts and soul and let someone in.

Are we all healthy emotionally, NO, but it’s the lessons that we learn about our self’s that matter. We each take different a rode to get to the same place of self-respect some just get there sooner than others.

There is no right or wrong here and learning how to walk in other people shoes is very importance and it’s the first step in taking responsibly for our action, thought and reaction. Life is not just black and white is filled with such color and at times we lose our-self and make bad choices. By looking at the choices and seeing what part you played in is the rode to making better choices in the future.

Who here that has commented have not made a bad choice in their life and got hurt and went public and went on and on about it?

I try not to post things public of things of personal nature in a public form but I have done it with friends. Yes, many got sick of hearing me and would roll their eyes but when you’re in pain you are blind and can’t see what you’re doing. After time has passed and you have to reflect on how you played a big role in it all you realized a few things.

What you realized is that you picked that person for one reason or another and you allowed that person in your life. There was something that you needed from that person it could be the need to own a slave or the need to spank or whatever but taking responsibility is the first step.

Some of us are willing victims and some are not but each of us are on our own personal journey. When I see someone hurting I listen and respect that they are hurting but I have learned not to carry it round on my shoulders. Compassion for another is so importance and we go to play parties to play and at time we are so busy with our own addenda to really look at the person that is hurting. It’s easy to say that a person is unstable but when they are hurting they are, who has not felt this in their life time. We make wrong choices for wrong reason but we have to step back and really look at how we added to these choices and take responsibility for our actions. But that can happen only after time has healed the wounds and fragile ego.

We all have been there, as these are life lessons and without the life lesson how would we ever know about our self’s? These lessons have molded me into the person that I have become and for that I’m grateful. Without them I would have not known thy self and I would have stayed the willing victim in life. With life you just show up each day and let it take you to self-awareness where you find your true self.

Walk in peace, love and joy,
Rev Mel

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Justin Sayne Independent Leather Designer on The Rev Mel Show


The Rev Mel Show live on Monday’s at 8 PM PST on TSRnetwork.com each week. Come and Join us in the chat room on TSRnetwork.com.

Justin Sayne is a independent Leather Designer, specializing in Fetish Leather. Justin began in May 2010, as a worker under Debbie Leather, in Arizona. Justin assisted in making corsets, cutting patterns, and designing Fetish toys. In the last 4 years, Justin has placed 3 toys in the Erotic Heritage Museum, been reviewed by Instigator Magazine, and has featured JSL product at high profile events across the country.
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Justin has always had a focus for safety, and it’s shown from the heavy duty Chicago screw bindings, to fashionable corset style armor for injured or sensitive bottoms, and all the way to breath play devices that release themselves.
Justin has a list of unique designs, seen nowhere else on earth. His “Flamethrower” and woven corset design are on display at the EHM. Each item is hand made by Justin and ultimately one of a kind.

Justin has recently started working with wild skin including, buffalo, elk, alligator, and is now offering custom products made in elephant, crocodile, giraffe, snake, shark, hippo and more.

Justin recently expanded his shop with new machines and is prepared for high output. Justin has a strong sense of community pride, and demands a high quality, safe product.

Justin is a veteran auctioneer, and will never refuse an opportunity to call a charity auction. His years of experience have been put to work raising funds for community members in trouble. Justin will never ask for a dime in return, and only asks for expenses if called out of state.

Justin resides in Mayer AZ.

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Would Like to Share a Story With You.

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I would like to share a story with you. A few weeks ago I had I had an change to attend an event at Liberty Manor out in Texas for a pre-opening of this amazing glam-camp, camp ground that that is for the BDSM community. My friend Ms Manell a friend of mine was launching this amazing place where like minded people can go and be with other like minded people and have the freedom to be who we are and that is kinky.

Being a city girl and being out in the country was something that I had not done in all most 35 years. My glam tent was amazing and the place was about 30 miles outside of Houston on 1500 acres.

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My Camp Site

My Wonderful Bed

My Wonderful Bed

After a cool drink we got up on back of truck and sat on hay stacks and the hay ride began. As we drove around I felt something strange and pulled around a corner our host said over to the left is a small cemetery. My heart sank as I felt someone present that has passed. We got off of the truck and all of us walked over to the grave site. There was only two head stones there and one was child that was died as an infant and one that died at the age of 9. I could hear a voice in my head that just would not stop. It was this amazing energy that was bouncing all over the place. She kept trying to talk to me and I was taken back but I could not make out what she was saying.

The owner Ms Manell slave gus told me a story that the tombstone of the little girl was broken and they would

put it back together by standing it up and the next time they would go back to where it was and it was in pieces again. One day they put it together again and they started to walk away and they heard the ground tremble and loud noise. They went back to the grave site and the once again the piece were on the ground.

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The Cemetery

Gus asked me what feelings did get about the little girl and was she ok with us coming over the grave site. What I felt was that she was lonely and this was joyful for her as she just a lonely soul that was happy to have people around.  On her stone she died in 1900 and she has been alone all this time. She wanted to be known and wanted their attention and so she made know to them she was there.

We left the grave site but she followed me as I could not shake her present. In the course of the evening I meet new friends and we sat round the fire place as they keep talking about snakes and other types of things that come out and they were screwing around with me. I was more worried about the little girl that was sitting next to me on the ground at my feet then the snakes.

I went to sleep and slept under the covers but I could feel her. The next day we did what you do at such an event and eat and gather at the bonfire at mid night we got back on the truck on the hay stack’s and went back to the grave site. You see at mid-night it was her birthday so we took a glass candle and a teddy bear and places it on next to the tombstone. We could hear a train in the background and I asked the owner when the train was built. He said 1900 and it confirmed what she was telling me. The train sound was so comforting to her as she would listen to the sound of the train when she was alive.

We are all standing there and shut my eyes and started speaking in tongue and I started rocking. All of sudden I was pushed back with such a force that I was almost knocked over. There were two people standing next to me and caught me and at that moment I heard her voice in my head.

She cried out I’m sorry tell my mommy I’m sorry it was said over and over again in my mind. She keep saying I died because my mommy said don’t go out to the barn. I disobeyed my mommy. She keep saying this even as we walked away from the grave site. I had to two people walk me back to the truck and they place me inside the cab as I was shaking.

One of my new friends came back to my camp site with me and we talked for hours and he felt the same that I felt and we cried tears for this little girl that sat my feet. When I went to bed I told my new friend that the little girl was welcome to come and sleep in my bed. I felt her next to me and it was a feeling of joy and love. It was something that she was missing and what she need.

What was amazing was that I fell right to sleep and slept for hours. I woke up feeling so refreshed and loved. I could feel a feeling of peace from the little girl that would not leave my side. It felt like that some of my walls were broken down and I felt much softer and that it brought out the gentle part of my soul. She changed me!

That afternoon we did a self-hypnosis class and that’s when the little girl took over and talked to me more about how she died. She said it was at night and she went to the barn and climbed the latter to get something. Her mother told her not to go to in the barn during the day. She snaked out of bed knowing she was disobeying her mother. She talked so fast and was all over the place. I kept getting two different stories from her one was I feel off the second floor of the barn and the other was I died of infection. She kept telling me both things and I’m sorry mommy.

The next day I lead a meditation about past lives and it was an amazing time shared with such amazing people and as we came out of the meditation we shared what we saw. I was leading this so I did not go on the journey in the past lives, but what happens when I lead a meditation I have no control over what is said as my spirit guides take over me. The little girl was right next to me.

I was able to talk to her in a calm way and yes she died of both as she fell off the second floor she landed on a pitch fork and it did not kill her but the infection afterwards did. Her mother could not cope with losing her so she took her own life. The sadness and pain over took as I started to cry tears. I went back to my glam-tent after the meditation and was quiet as I my eyes cried over the pain of this child dealing with 125 years of guilt.  I could feel her pain and also the release of being able to share this someone. I felt she was a peace and she told me the owner of land was her protector and she told me to thank him.

The morning I was leaving she come to me and I close my eyes and told she was safe now and she was free from guilt. Her mother came to me and there was healing of two souls. I left knowing that she was now happy and could find peace.

The owner was at my meditation and on the way to the airport he told me as he cried that felt that he was her protector way before I placed my foot the grave site. Not only did this little girl touch my heart but she touched everyone’s heart that was there that weekend. She is now loved by so many and she happy.

Rev Mel

Ms Manell and gus will be interviewed on June 16 on the Rev Mel Show at 8 PM PST on TSRnetwork.com

 

 

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